Pain and Jealousy of my heart

08-apr-2009...when the break time is almost over,me and joshua when back to class and I saw Carlos and Porshia are dating together,I know how it feel,It feel nice,and I saw my bro Raymond and snow snow also dating together,I look at them both,so happy..I ever feel that kind of happy be4,but nw I cant feel it anymore..after school I saw 'She and him'I cant say out the name of she and him hehehehe..she and him was walking together,and I feel Jealous.....my mind was telling me don care about them,but my heart still got the Jealous feeling.....At 6:00 I saw her online...And her msn picture make my heart feel Pain,that picture make me no mood...I keep on thinking of that picture,I keep telling myself it was nth,but I still feel so sad and fail..T_T...But after that I played dota with my frd..we win,I feel happy again.but that pain of the feeling will always be in my heart...sometime i just want to tell 'U':I love you more then anyone did,I will use my life to protect u 4ever.But I just cant say it...U just keep hurting me more and more...T_T""